Finding Inspiration

Laying in bed this morning, I struggled to get my butt up. I wondered what I was supposed to do. The idea of being productive did not appeal to me. All I wanted to do was to stay in bed. It was not until I grabbed my phone and listened to the British Muslim musician Harris J, who I found out by NPR.

Harris J’s song “Salam Alaikum” made me smile for some reason. The background tune sounded so simple, yet refreshing. I started dancing to the song.

Finding inspiration can be difficult sometime. We sometime think that we have to go to some exotic location to find inspiration. Yet, we don’t have to.

Inspiration can be found anywhere, especially on the internet. If it wasn’t for NPR, I would not have found out about Harris J. To find your inspiration, here are some simple ways:

1. Take a walk outside. Have your eyes wide open and enjoy the smell of the air. Something might spark something in your mind.

2. Read a book. It seems so mundane, but the story could stretch your imagination out more.

3. Waste some time online. This sounds so stupid, but you never know what you might find, especially on YouTube. I have found some creative videos, such as the Halloween makeup videos by Nicole Guerriero.

4. Hang out with friends. By simply talking with them can make you randomly think of an idea.

5. Look at images. Images are non-verbal messages made up of lines, colors, texture, and shades. Even one trait in the image could become your muse. You can find images in magazines, online, museums, and pretty much anywhere.


Finding Your Inner Strength

So many amazing moments have happened to me since May, such as seeing Washington D.C. for the first time. Along with the positive experiences, there have been low points too. With the low points, I have been forced to find my inner strength.

The task of finding a job has been a difficult one. I have applied for a lot of positions and maybe get a few interviews. With each interview, I go in there confidently, but I end up getting rejected.

Getting rejected is never fun. I question why I did not get the position. Taking the rejection is hard, but I can’t dwell on it.

By not getting a job, I worry that my life is not going anywhere. I panic about not advancing with my adulthood. Life has been a roller-coaster ride.

As much as I want to have a pity party, I can’t. I have realized that I have to find my inner strength in order to succeed. Finding it is a difficult task, but I must.

Everyday, I wake up with a positive attitude. I look forward to what will unfold for the day. Keeping my head up is hard, but I refuse to quit.

Recently, I have been fortunate to receive some freelance work. Getting these gigs has boosted my confidence back up. I am very happy right now.

In my process of finding my inner strength, I now understand that inner strength is not just about being strong; it is to guide you on how to find your light in the darkness. Inner strength is knowing that you will be fine no matter what.

How to Make Your Life Better

People love to fuss that college will be the best years of your life. That makes you wonder if life after college sucks. Assuming life sucks after college will put you in a negative mindset.

I won’t deny that life after college has been rough, but I have been finding way to keep me moving.

Here are five things that I have been doing:

1. Eating better

I used to eat horribly growing up. For breakfast, I would eat ramen noodle with rice. It would fill me up, but I wasn’t being healthy.

Now, I make sure to have some protein like egg and other healthy options like fruit for breakfast. I have also cut back on sugar; I only drink soda once a week. Tea is my preferred drink now.


2. Make new friends

I have been meeting new people randomly. This past summer, I worked at a summer conference, where I became pals with people who just recently graduated college like me too. Since then, we have stayed in touch.


3. Exercise

Exercising is not my favorite activity, but it’s important. My health isn’t something to take for granted. Now, I jog in the morning.


4. Pursue new activities

I have decided to enter into some writing competitions. Never done it before, but I figured why not. It’s time for me to try new things.

5. Meet up with old friends

Never forget your friends. It’s easy to get busy and not have time for others, but try. I have been scheduling times to meet up with old college friends at Starbucks to catch up.


Not being Perfect

Perfection is drilled in us at a young age. We are told that we have to get it right the first time. Making a mistake is not considered acceptable. 

Through out my whole life, I have always strived for perfection. That goal has made me successful, but it has made it hard for me to accept failure. I end up feeling deflated.

Now, I know that it is okay to not be perfect. We are human; making mistakes is normal. The most important thing is learning from our mistakes. That is how we learn and grow as people.

I am not saying that you should not strive to do better. You should always want to improve yourself. The most important thing: knowing how to handle rejection and failure gracefully.

It is okay to not be perfect. You should embrace your unique characteristics. Just remember to breathe and live life. 

Finding Your Voice

The task of finding your voice tends to be a complicated process. You first wonder what it means to have a voice. Even if you know what it means, you can get confused by listening to others who think they know you.

I have struggled to develop my voice. Growing up, I had no idea what my voice was. People kept telling me how I should act. Even in college, my professors strongly told me that my thinking was awful. They almost made me think that their bs style was the best (it turned out that some of my professors lacked originality and creativity). 

Now I have a better idea what my voice is. It has taken me trial and error to find it. This is how I found it:

1. Why do you care to have a voice?

I have realized that you have to have a reason for wanting a voice or else you will drown in confusion.

2. What is the end goal?

Having a clear goal better informs you on who you are trying to talk to.

3. Stop giving a fuck who people think.

It is so easy to let others’ opinions overwhelm you. You have to learn not to take things personally.

4. Stop comparing yourself to others.

I was guilty of comparing myself to others. Self-doubts were strong because I feared that I was not doing enough. It dawn on me that I had to stop thinking that I was doing a shitty job.

5. Keep it moving.

You are bound to have some missteps along the road, but you just have to keep it moving.

By my struggles of figuring out what I feel or think about things, I am getting closer to finding my voice.