It has been over a month since I last blogged. I was going through a lot in the last month. A lot of emotional and personal matters.
I felt that I had nothing to say.
I was living my life on autopilot.
It was until yesterday that I began to get myself off of autopilot. It was sunny outside and I decided to go outside for a walk. I hadn’t walked outside in months since I drove everywhere.
When I was walking, I noticed how big and green the trees were. I breathed in the fresh air. I completely ignored my phone.
While I was walking, thoughts began to popped up on my mind. I questioned where I was going with my life. I wondered when my dreams would happen (Dealing with doubts have been my greatest weakness because I worry a lot).
It wasn’t until I remembered that I should stop worrying. I won’t deny that being patient isn’t my greatest thing. But life has presented things in unusual ways. Those unusual ways make me more excited and happy for those moments.
Walking is my time to reflect and appreciate the good things in my life.
“I’m going to work out!” That was what I told myself in college. I always planned on going to the gym after class, but I never did. My motivation was low and I would end up napping.
It wasn’t until recently that I decided to exercise finally. For the last few weeks, I have been jogging in the morning. Never would I have thought that I would get my butt up early at seven am for a morning workout.
On my first day, I was struggling to push myself. I was breathing hard; my body was aching. Once ten minutes hit, I stopped. Bending down on my knees, I questioned why I was doing this to myself.
My mind thought, “Give up. This is too much.” I was going to until I reminded myself that I wanted to improve my health. The next morning, I moved my legs quickly and jogged for twenty minutes outside. A huge desire was burning inside of me to get myself in shape.
Since my first week of jogging, I have been keeping it up. Slowly, I have been building up my endurance and speed. Twenty minutes no longer feels painful for me. I am aiming to do other exercises in the future.
A bright yellow light hit my eyes. Slowly, I open my eyes and roll my head over to check the time on my phone. Morning. Could careless to get up, but the luxury of sleeping in is no longer available.
In the kitchen, I put some water in the kettle. Waiting for it to boil, I grab the green tea with ginger bag. After pouring the hot water in my cup with the tea bag, I hold the cup and the smell hit my nose. I smile with a big grin and close my eyes before taking a sip.
Drinking green tea everyday is not a habit I regularly did before. Before, I would drink at least a can of soda everyday (so bad, but I did not care). Whenever I had to write papers, I would be up drinking over two cans. All that sugar kept me going, which I needed to endure boring lectures and school assignments.
However, since graduating college, my body has been fighting against me whenever I consume so much sugar. I become very tired and cranky. My energy level is so low that it is a struggle for me to function.
To change my habit, I have been substituting soda with green tea. Green tea has been shown to provide a variety of healthy benefits such as reducing cholesterol. Since drinking green tea, I have been feeling a lot more energetic and happier.
When I am writing or reading, I always have a cup of green tea on my desk. Drinking green tea eases my mind. I lose myself in my work while ignoring my phone.
Embracing green tea has been my life more enjoyable.
Whenever I got home from school, I would be starving. Looking through my kitchen, there would be pasta, rice, and other ingredients to make dinner. However, I did not feel like cooking.
Instead, I would go on GrubHub! GrubHub made life easy by providing information on which restaurants did delivery. The service also calculated the total bill including tip and tax. I was one happy camper when I ate my fried cheese wontons.
Eating greasy food was no big deal growing up. My body seemed to be okay with it. I ate whatever I wanted.
However, now my body is rebelling against me. Whenever I eat too much junk food, my body shut down on me. I become very tired and ill.
My body will no longer tolerate my horrible eating habits. Now, I am adapting healthier food options in my life. For example, I have recently started eating yogurt with granola for breakfast. That has made me feel more fresh in the morning.
Reducing my consumption of red meat has happened too. I used to eat bacon all the time, but I now avoid buying it when grocery shopping. Meat is still a major part of my diet, but I generally stick to chicken or fish now.
Soda is one thing I have been cutting back on too. I used to drink a lot of it because it would keep me going in classes. Well, I have realized that I feel a lot more energetic when I do not drink it. I still drink a can or two a week, but my health is a lot better now.
Taking my health for granted is something I now try to stop. I need to start treating my body well or else I will not age well. If I do not improve my physical health, I might not be able to live a full life.